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Eileen poses in Amsterdam with pink bike and brownish canal and multicolored floral scarf!!
I just realized I've been using the men's bathroom in the hostel all along. If that's not a gender statement I don't know what is.
Today I learned that the Netherlands is roughly the number one tallest country. That explains the higher sinks, higher ceilings, and beautiful people. I love a tall world. Everything is better.
Quite a bit has happened since my last post I think. Tuesday we had a lecture in the morning, given by Iveta (I think I want to be Iveta when I grow up. She's hilarious, probably one of the most intelligent people I know, she runs a lot so she has a rockin' bod, she lives in Yellow Springs with her husband Dan the man and her 8 cats who are trained to only go in certain parts of the house because Dan the man has a cat allergy, and she has the coolest Czech accent. She told me she wants to run with me around the canal and that I should visit her in Yellow Springs once we're both back in Ohio so I think that means we're already best friends forever and that I'm on the right track to being her when I grow up), about conducting research as a feminist and situating yourself in the field. I didn't realize how much revolves around power when researching. Note to self and others if interested: review notes on that lecture because it's hella interesting. I think I contributed pretty well to the discussion. I actually read and took notes on the readings before class so I think that helped.
After the lecture, I went on a run, showered, and then we had a tour of the city. On my run I actually went down the canal which was cool. I didn't see my calico cat friend this time but I did pass a pair pf guys walking along kicking a soccer ball and I think one of them tried to pass it to me when I passed, but I missed it so there goes my chance of looking cool in front of/making friends with them. Ugh. I also passed a precious moment of a middle aged couple sharing a goodbye kiss as one of them boarded his/her motorcycle/scooter thing. So cute.
The tour was awesome. I snapped some sweet pics. It sort of revolved around the Dom tower, part of St. Martin's Cathedral (aka the Dom church) which I think is in the center of the city and was a big deal in Medieval times. Cool stories. That's where the Netherlands' Declaration of Independence was signed, but the actual date of independence is a little fuzzy/debatable or something. It's funny because in the US we make such a big deal about our Declaration of Independence/Independence Day.  I also found out that the canal's purpose was for goods/food to be delivered on it and then stored in the rooms along the canal because it was underground and thus cold enough to preserve the food. I also found out that bikes are really cheap here (like 25 euros?) and that a lot of people own like 4 to 5 bikes because they keep them in different cities so they can take the train around and then have a bike wherever they get off. Brilliant. I can't even begin to describe the absurd amount of bikes here. We need more/better bike paths in US cities. The city here is so quiet because there aren't that many cars. It's awesome.
After the tour, we all got ice cream from an ice cream truck and then went shopping. I got some sweet high-waisted jeans which I'm sporting in the above photo. I NEED TO BUDGET BETTER. But really awesome pants. On our way home we saw a little parade thing on the canal which was precious. At one point a live band/singer started playing Bad Romance by Lady Gaga, it was great. There has been an ongoing orientation thing happening all across the city for UU. Really extravagant events/tents and stuff. And I don't know if it has anything to do with it, but there has been a constant crowd of college students gathered right outside our bedroom window whose chatter/cigarette smoke make it kind of hard to sleep at night. 
Then we came back and I had dinner and tried to do some work but I couldn't concentrate so I fraternized and went to bed. The hostel has still been keeping up with their good music selections. They played a remix of Blondie Heart of Glass and some Band of Horses and some Pavement. I'm finding that a lot of music here is remixed versions of other songs which I think is awesome. There was a male version of a Robyn song playing in H&M. I found out that a crappy pop artist in the Netherlands is Thomas Berge. Really funny/poor quality music video.
Wednesday morning we had a lecture with Iveta in the morning where we talked about Standpoint Theory and then about the science question in Feminism. The articles we had to read for those (Harding and Haraway, respectively) were both pretty interesting but also pretty heavy and I had a hard time keeping up with them. I love the way Haraway writes because I really appreciate her use of figurative language and she has a lot of funny/clever/witty metaphors and stuff (which is what I strive for with my academic papers), but I think that the subject matter was just so foreign and complex and dense to me that I had the most terrible time following it. I think I like that writing style only if it's about a topic that I understand better. I think that philosophical WGS stuff is better understood (by myself, at least) if stated in a more straightforward manner with less roundabout terminology/multiply perceivable descriptions (if that even makes sense?). So since the readings were so hard for me to understand,  the discussion during class was also difficult. Listening to other people discuss it was sort of helpful, but I just love going into class with a good idea of how to contribute and be able to follow along. It was hard for me not to zone out this time because I didn't have a very good idea of what was being discussed. The things I did begin to follow almost immediately changed track and I was lost again. It wasn't terrible though. I was still able to take notes and get somewhat of an idea of what Standpoint Theory was and stuff like that.
Then we went back to the hostel, I made a phenomenal apple/feta/honey omelet with jelly on the side. Then I did some research to see if the books I wanted were available at the UU library. Some are! I'm excited to go study up on those. Then Iveta came to Strowis and she and I had a meeting about my research project. She went over my proposal and my survey questionnaire with me and was suuuper helpful and encouraging. I love all of the positive feedback I'm getting about my research project, it's really reassuring and makes me feel even more enthusiastic because everyone seems really interested/excited to see how it'll turn out (as am I). Iveta gave me some good tips and is even sending me a link to a helpful website and maybe some scanned books she has. So awesome. I'm excited because I think the majority of my research is going to be on the general public with like surveys and stuff which I think will be so much more fun than using mostly books and written work as my sources. Should be fun but also is nerve-wracking because I've heard so many horror stories of field work where researchers got rejected or couldn't work up courage to ask people for their time/effort to complete a survey and stuff. For some reason I'm not too worried about that though. I think that any results are good results no matter how small in quantity. We'll see. 
After our meeting I did a little more work and then took a two-hour long nap that was really disorienting. Refreshing though. Then I made some pasta for din, chatted with some of the gals, and read for homework. When I thought I had digested all of my food I went on a run. Don't think I waited long enough though because I had to walk a little in the middle of it. Found a new route though! I love running around here because it's usually all around the canal for the whole time which is beautiful and then there are som many people around that it keeps me entertained. There's also all of that orientation stuff going on so there were a lot of big parties and moonbounces and events and things. Fun. Then I passed a movie theater on the way back to Strowis and saw a poster for a new Woody Allen movie so that's exciting. Would love to check that out.
When I got back some people said they were going out and then one girl (Hannah) said she just wanted to go somewhere and get cake so I was like hell yeah I love cake let's do it. So I showered and started getting ready (got walked in on while in the shower and THEN in the bathroom by two different random girls in the hostel oops thought I was better with locks guess not). When I was putting on my makeup in the common area with sinks and mirrors, some kids came and one started talking to me in Dutch (seemed a bit cocky but also foreign language = communication barriers). I let him ramble for a while before I interrupted him saying that I only speak English (his tall blonde friend started laughing at that). The first kid then started retelling his monologue in English about how he's from Utrecht and he just met these kids today and now he's in their hostel. Then the tall blonde kid (with what I thought was some kind of accent) asked where I was from and I said America and he laughed and asked what part because he's from Seattle. Funny because I didn't even recognize his American accent I guess because of the context. It's interesting how that works. 
A few girls upstairs were doing stick n' poke DIY tattoos and watching Across the Universe so I went and watched them do that (they turned out pretty cool) and then a few other girls and I went out. The whole time I was thinking we were going to get cake but then we ended up at a gay bar. On a Wednesday night. At like 11pm. I wasn't even in the mindset to hit the bars let alone the gay bars. After a few 90's songs (Hanson 'Mmmbop' included), Hannah and I peaced out. Then got reeeeally lost for like a half hour trying to get back to the hostel. On the way, I stopped a person on his bike to ask for directions. He happened to be from New York and was just visiting his friend in Utrecht. He was useless for directions but we had a nice English conversation with him. I noticed how much more relaxed the conversation was because all of us were native English speakers so there was no accent or need for interpretation or anything. I think it was interesting because my whole demeanor changed once I realized he was American and it became much more effortless to interact. But then I was wondering why that is because even with Dutch people, their English is very accurate and it shouldn't be tense or anything to have a conversation because there really is mutual understanding. I didn't think it was like that until this occurrence with the New Yorker where I noticed my change of attitude. I kind of wish it wasn't like that because I want to be able to converse with the Dutch people in a natural, organic way, but for some reason I must feel somewhat unnatural and tense with our conversations. Gonna work on that. Anyways, the NY guy was lost too so we were all kind of hopeless. Eventually we found our way back and went to bed. 
Yesterday (Thursday) morning, at 9am, Iveta met us at Strowis and we all walked to the train station to leave for Amsterdam for the day. SO AWESOME. Amsterdam is som beautiful and even more of a cultural experience than Utrecht. We immediately went to the Red Light District which was already pretty active at like 11am. Such a cool experience. Prostitution/sex work is such a taboo in the US that it was sort of an adjustment to see these scantily clad women showing themselves off in the windows waiting for/flirting with possible customers. The main part of the district is around this giant beautiful church, which was funny. I've never before heard church bells in the background as I walked past prostitutes (at least every other time I've walked past prostitutes that's never happened) (kidding) (I've never walked past prostitutes before). On top of that, among the sex windows/souvenir shops/bars and restaurants, there was a kindergarten literally in between red light windows. Such a different culture. Here it's just a part of life so it's not a big deal for little kids to go to school near such action. One of the girls on the program with me (Sharon) made a funny comparison and said that when a Hooters was opened within a certain distance of her middle school, the whole town was up in arms. This way, I bet moms who were also sex workers could drop their children off on the way to work. How convenient! As we passed some of the windows, I eventually warmed up and began to make eye contact and smile at the women. 
The coolest part was that we got to go to the Prostitution Information Center and listen to Mariska, a former sex worker and now icon of the Red Light District tell us about her story and her position on sex work and the negative stigmas and how sex workers need respect and support. Seriously mind blowing. She began when she was 16 because she wanted money to buy a dog and stopped when she was 21 because she was ready to stop, not because she didn't like it or thought negatively of it or anything. To her it was simply work. I know I'm never going to be able to reiterate the positive things she said about the industry (not that it's my place to even try) in as articulate of a way as she did, but I certainly was impacted by it. So interesting. Then she took us on a tour of the District and I bought two postcards from her. 
After that we got delicious crepes from a crepe/waffle place in the district and shopped around a little. 
Then we went to a giant women's center in Amsterdam where we were given a presentation by Women on Waves, an agency that gives medical abortions (using pills instead of surgery) on international waters on a boat for people who want an abortion but it is illegal in their country. Also very interesting and informative. 
Then we did a little shopping and had filafel for dinner (on our way to the filafel place, we passed a strip club thing that had some explicit neon signs. The man standing outside noticed me having a little awkward giggle at the signs and shouted some obscene suggestive remarks at me regarding my hair color and stuff. Super disgusting and made me feel really weird and gross and offended like I've never felt before. Then I had to remember the environment I was in and that such behavior is expected and tolerated in the Red Light District. Strange experience). After dinner, we sat along the canal to people-watch/observe one of the window girls as she interacted with potential customers. We even saw one man go in and then come out after a while. It's cool because 2 people in the program (Bethany and Ezra) are doing their research projects on sex work, so it was cool talking to Bethany about how she wanted to go about it and her apprehensions and stuff. We all want her to interview a sex worker and she wants to as well but she 's nervous and also doesn't want to take up their work time by interviewing them, which is understandable. I hope she and Ezra find a way though because that would be awesome.
A lot of the discussions we've had in class and then the presentations in Amsterdam have all been really cool and new to me that it seems to be evoking emotional responses. Like sometimes I'll suddenly feel an urge to tear up and it won't even be expected or anything, it's funny. I don't know, I think I've just never really had the opportunity to learn the things I'm learning and discuss them in these ways and have the experiences that I'm having. I'm usually not provoked to think about these things in different ways like this. I'm so grateful. 
Anyways, then Sharon and I came back to Utrecht and got some ice cream and went to bed. Awesome day.
Today we had class until noon and discussed queer-ing methodologies. So interesting because to "queer" something is like to skew it or think of it in a different way or even to break an idea down so much that it is dissected to its very origin and then one can really see how the idea was formed. Ask me about those notes too because there's some cool stuff in there. Then I came back and made some eggs for lunch and went on a run around the canal. Saw a lot of cool and pleasant people/sites this time. I guess it was a good time to go because so many people were out. And the weather was absolutely gorgeous today. It's been pretty consistently cool (except not consistent at all because there will be almost every weather element possible in one day here) so I keep having to sort of bundle up but today people were laying out in the sun and stuff it was nice. Then I came back and showered and did some skyping with my mom and sister and friend Debbie. Super nice to chat with those peeps. If anyone wants to skype or facetime or talk to me at all, please do. I miss everyone already. Tonight we went to a little dance party around the corner which was super fun. Sidenote: a quote from Joy, one of the girls on the program, as she was leaving our bedroom to go to hers: "Okay.. well.. I'll be upstairs putting on lipstick and dancing to Bruce Springsteen. Let me know what you guys " Adorable. Anyways, dance party. It's funny because at school, I think I'm a pretty weird dancer compared to other people at our parties, but here, so many of the girls and people dance just as weirdly as I do, it's so fun. So much flailing and hopping and 80's style jamming it was great. Now about to hit the sheets. Might go eat some cheese because that sounds good.

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There's an awesome canal that goes around the city and at some parts you can walk down by it and there are some restaurants and bars and shops underground. Some people even kayak/paddle boat on it. So precious

Really loving this place you guys. Utrecht is awesome. Such a cool/weird/crowded city. Sidenote: ever since the man who sat next to me on the Dublin to Amsterdam plane smelled like incredible b.o., I keep getting whiffs of that awful stench. Not sure if it's me (I don't think so because I just showered and have been performing all of my routine hygienic procedures) or the people around me or the city but I smell it now and I really hope it doesn't stick around. 
I'm staying in a 6 person room filled with girls from the Antioch program and they are all super nice and very interesting to listen to talk about feminism or anti feminism or gender studies in general or anything about life. Everyone here is like that. I love it because I never get bored listening to them. So far I haven't gotten annoyed listening to those kinds of subjects, but we'll see how long that lasts. Just kidding. I do get sort of frustrated talking about feminism etc just because there is soooo much that goes into it and my mind goes off on so many tangents and sometimes my thoughts contradict themselves and also sometimes I can't articulate what I'm trying to say or I don't want to try because I know I won't use the right terminology or vernacular or be able to quote feminist writers or anything like that. Obviously I need to move past that because MY THOUGHTS COUNT TOO (not searching for pity or encouragement or anything - mainly talking to you, aunts - just venting). I'm also starting to feel more confident about my research project (stereotypes of feminists across cultures). I think it will be interesting and after voicing my topic and hearing myself put it into words when explaining it to my peers/teachers I don't feel like it's as useless or childish as I did before. We'll see.
I've been sleeping pretty well at nights. Sometimes I have to put my earplugs in because *~B!g C!tY L!Fe!!*~ is loud at night and we have to keep the windows open because otherwise it gets too stuffy in the room.
This weekend we had orientation during the day on Friday, Saturday, and Sunday and then went out on the town at night. On Friday night when we were just sitting on the patio before we went out, I introduced myself to two other kids staying at our hostel, Simeon (19) and Diana (21), who are best friends and who attend Falmouth Uni in the UK as art students. Simeon introduced himself and Diana by saying something like "Diana like the princess and Simeon like cinnamon." I of course used "Eileen, like the song." They loved that. I love them. I invited them out with us and the whole group loved them. We went to a bunch of different bars and it was awesome not even being id'd or anything. I've been legal here for almost 5 years now. Weird. I also loved that, although practically
everyone here speaks English, at first many of them begin to speak Dutch to me and some actually tell me they thought I was Dutch so it's nice to think that I'm not a totally obvious American tourist.
Another sidenote/omg: "Joe DiMaggio's Done it Again" just came on in the common area of the hostel as I'm typing. Ugh I love it. They play some pretty good tunes here. Talking Heads, Arctic Monkeys, Latin instrumentals, etc. The owner kind of reminds me of David Byrne. I also keep hearing of awesome concerts happening over here while we're here/around here (David Byrne and St. Vincent, Avett Brothers, Macklemore and Ryan Lewis). Gotta budget.
Anywho, I do like how easy it is to communicate because everyone speaks English, but I also wish I would learn some Dutch (so far I know thank you: danke viel, please/you're welcome/here you go: alstublieft, good day: dag/alles gut and a few more random terms for like food and stuff). I think it's pretty similar to German sometimes. There's also that whole "linguistic imperialism" thing that makes me feel bad. We read an article on that. I need to start being less assumptive that everyone speaks English and more apologetic that I don't speak Dutch.
Saturday I sat with Simeon and Diana for a bit (most of the other Antioch girls had gone to a fem event in Amsterdam - would have been cool to join but I napped instead) and chatted/played cards (I taught them spot it and they taught me Irish snap - hope I don't forget that one so I can teach it to all my US peeps) until we decided that we should go get beer and turn them into drinking games. So the two of them, Ezra, and myself went to the store and got some caramel flavored Heineken - so good - and played some more Irish snap, then I taught them Circle of Death, then they taught me High/Low, then they taught us Good-day Mate, which is hilarious. I taught them Pterodactyl then Up, Down, Look. Then I grabbed a group of Spanish guys and we all went to a bunch of bars. We ended up ditching the Spanish guys because they were loud and annoying and then awkwardly dancing at a bunch of bars/clubs.
Yesterday, I slept in really late and then we had a session of Trans 101 with our TA Lauren and then played a group-building game called Mystery Dream Date that was suuuper hilarious. Trans 101 was totally interesting and very helpful to me, not having ever really known a transgender personally. I took some interesting notes on it all. It makes me feel bad because I want to say I blame society for conditioning me to live by the gender binary, but even more so I blame myself because I could have been a more deliberate, conscious thinker and not assumed the common mindset that physical body parts assign gender to people. So much more goes into it, it's crazy. 
After all of that, I went and sat with Simeon and Diana and this kid John who just got to the hostel yesterday and who is from Manchester, but who went to UU (Utrecht University) for a year and just got back from visiting friends in Germany for a little. 
Today, after eating breakfast with and saying goodbye to Simeon and Diana (they left to continue their travels today. Really sad to me because I loved hanging out with them especially if I was wanting to switch it up from only hanging out with the feminist gals) I attended a lecture with the group about feminism and multiculturalism that was really interesting. I took some good notes on that if anyone wants to look at them. Let me know. Once again, got really into thinking deeply about it all and got frustrated at how tangential my mind was getting. Then we took a tour of the university library and went to a feminist bookstore (insert Portlandia "Women and Women Now" reference here). Good stuff. Then we came back to the hostel, I made some din, and went on a run around the canal. Really should be reading the incredible amount of reading we have to read but instead of reading, I'm blogging.
Holy cow, sorry this is getting so long. It's turning into more of a diary than a blog. I'll keep it short from now on. 
I'll conclude with a few -isms:

  • Simeonisms: Blimey, good 'eavens, snogging, crikey, prevening ( pre-evening. Apparently Diana thought of that one but Simeon takes credit for it and they both embarassingly laugh about it and tell us not to take it back to the states but too late for that) 
  • Britisms: Cool American=Cooler Ranch Doritos (apparently America is the only place that has Ranch dressing. Imagine that), nail varnish=nail polish, and they say yogurt with a short "o" instead of a long one like us. "Y-ah-gurt"


Again, sorry for the novel/for spilling my inner thoughts. Until next time!

xx

 
MADE IT! Here's a nice pic of the view from my window as we flew into Amsterdam. She's a really photogenic city (kind of a showoff but she flaunts what she's got so I can't put it past her. Aw so cute). Not really sure what day of the trip to consider today because that whole "jet lag" and "lack of sleep" and "time change" stuff coincidentally isn't a myth. Tomorrow is orientation to the courses though, so that maybe helps give some perspective of what's up.
Today we flew in to Amsterdam and then took a train to Utrecht, home of the Strowis hostel. Lovely little joint. We unpacked, had some individual meetings with Iveta, the program director, and her TA, Lauren. It's interesting because Lauren prefers the  pronoun "they" as opposed to "she" or even "he." A student in the program, Ezra (currently sleeping in the bunk above me and also was on the same flights as I was) actually does the same thing. It made me realize that I have to start asking people what pronoun they prefer before I assume it just is paired with the sex of the person. I am actually learning a lot of new things about gender and feminism and women's studies already, just from listening to these girls (or these people) talk among themselves. All of them have taken at least one WGS course before this, and most of them have WGS as part of their majors. Needless to say, I'm definitely the least-versed person in that area out of the whole group, so it's intimidating but I'm definitely not hesitant to ask what things mean or for a topic to be explained. It's all very new and exciting.
A few of us walked a little bit down the road to a little supermarket to get food for dinners and snacks and stuff. The amount of bikes and bikers in this city is incredible. I love it. There is more cycle traffic than car traffic which I think is so precious and it makes me want more/better bike lanes in the US (or at least Belleville).
It's kinda chilly at night here. Sweater weather. I like it.

xx

 
And so it begins. Well, so it's about to begin. It's day negative one of my semester across the pond and these energetic little butterflies won't settle down in my deep-dish-pizza-filled stomach. I've been spending a few days in Chicago before I fly out tomorrow for my study abroad trip in Eastern Europe.

My name is Eileen and I live in Belleville, IL (right outside St. Louis). I am currently working toward a degree in English and Communications (with a focus in Journalism) and a minor in Women's and Gender Studies at the University of Dayton. I plan on graduating in 2013 as a happy and satisfied 22 year-old. Before I reach that point however, I will embark on a journey across Eastern Europe while taking classes and experiencing life from a whole different perspective. Antioch University is providing me with this experience via their Comparative Women's and Gender Studies in Europe program. Starting tomorrow until early November I will be taken through Utrecht, the Netherlands; Berlin, Germany; Prague, the Czezh Republic; and Krakow, Poland all while taking classes about feminism and gender roles.

As I'm writing this, those annoying butterflies are still going at it. I guess I'm nervous? Excited? Hungry? I have never been to any of these countries, I've never taken any WGS classes, and I don't know anyone else going on my program, so I really don't know what to expect from it at all. But I promise to keep all of you guys updated as I go along. Thanks for taking a look at my blog! You can follow me through my trip EuroFem2k13 and experience everything just as I do! Tschau!



xx

Eileen